I don't know anymore

Angelina/Philly/18

what i like is what i blog.

my goddamn rant

I AM DONE WITH SCHOOL BECAUSE LITERALLY EVERYONE BESIDES NAUME AND ERIN FUCKING SUCK 17 SCHOOL DAYS AND I AM D O N E AND I AM NEVER TALKING TO THESE PEOPLE AGAIN.

I came into the school alone and without friends and at this point I will GLADLY leave without friends. after experiencing the past four years with these people I can happily say I will never contact them again. have fun in pitt, have fun at the academy of arts, temple, la sale, or wherever you guys are fucking going, and remember to never talk to me again.

you constantly ridicule me for how I am, yes I am loud, and outgoing, and I can be hyper, but I think its better than being a conservative, shy, unfriendly person. you can ridicule me for the way I dress, and the music I listen to, but you have not defeated me.

I hope half of you see this. I hope you say something to me tomorrow so I can go off on how fucking lame half of you are. I hope you keep talking shit.

you call me dumb, you call me an idiot, you call me ugly, but I see other things about me that you CLEARLY don’t see, I am caring, honest, kind, real, and unlike the rest of you, I am different. there aren’t carbon copies of me running around the school.

this high school experience sucked, and I cant wait to get it over with, but in all honesty, I learned so much from all of you, and the number one thing is, this is happening for a reason, and I would rather it have been me you ridiculed than someone who wouldn’t be able to handle the pressure and either hurt themselves or others.

I am better than this, and I will succeed in life, just fucking watch me.

xoxo hate you all,

Angelina Maria Meo

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You ask me to move my bookbag, yet i ask you countless time to stop talking about me…i obviously know the answer to the question i asked you, but the fun thing is when you dont know what im about to say.

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Jared, how to start this.. you were a huge part of my 7th, 8th, and 9th grade years. I remember calling you and Matt at 3 am and staying on the phone for hours, talking about runescape and music. I know we didn’t talk for two years, and that was my fault. But, I did see you this past Sunday and I was honestly so excited that I knew someone who was going to go to college with me. We said hi and caught up for a little bit, but that conversation had to end. It sucks to know that you passed away only a day after I saw you again. Maybe fate put you in my path to clear the air and say goodbye, maybe it was just a coincidence that you were there. I like to think that your life has taught me that things might not go as planned, and things happen and it is just a part of life, but no matter what, live each day to the fullest, never end your days in a negative mindset, and always tell people that you miss them and love them(if you really do). This isn’t making any sense, but i just wanted to write this. I know you’re watching over us, probably making fun of everyone from your view up above..but i want you to know you will be missed, and your legacy and life will go on down here, while youre up there. Earth lost an amazing human, but Heaven gained an amazing angel.
It’s Adventure Time wherever you are.
Rest In Peace Jared.

it gets to the point where i really just want a friend who isn’t down for anything serious but just wants to fool around. naaah meaan?

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just because you got accepted into a school for art doesnt mean you are good at what you do.

im sorry honey, but i can take better pictures with a 120 dollar digital camera than you can with your 1000 dollar camera and 300 dollar lens.

also, you cant paint or draw.

also, i might be loud and boisterous, or “concited”, but that can change, you are an ugly person on the inside, and are so mean, and that will never fucking change.

have fun being alone and miserable all the time.

shew.

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stupid relationship stuff.

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Its pathetic that this weekend, actually, almost every weekend, but this one especially, being as my birthday is in 2 days, nobody wants to hang out. Not even my best friend, like ok hang out with all of my other friends but dont fucking invite me or anything. It really hurts to know that through it all, nobody is there for me. I just wanted to go to the diner for an hour, to spend time with my friends, but she doesnt even want to. And i feel alone, this week more than anything.
And my cousin is having a birthday party for her kid this weekend, so everyone in my family besides my mom failed to recognize my birthday is in 2 days, oh and theres another birthday party next weekend too, not for me, so i dont even get next week. I dont want gifts, i just wanted acknowledgement.
I feel like shit and i want to cry.
Sorry about this rant. It makes me spund selfish but if you were in my situation, you would feel the same way.

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Feelings suck. Being sad fucking sucks. School sucks. Everyone in my school sucks. Liking people sucks. And not knowing if they like you back is the worst of all.

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BTW NOBODY KNOWS THIS ON HERE BUT I DYED MY HAIR BROWN AND IT LOOKS SO GOOD

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someone talk to me to get my mind off of things omfg help me before i jump out of this window ekgjnefkjn

i would love for someone to go on anon and ask me personal questions ok please yes.

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I had 3 bananas today do you know what that means….

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FUN FACT I HAVE A PROM DATE NOW OK

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Lookin for a prom date heyyyy yaaaaaa

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It’s hard to admit you’re not as strong as everyone believes you are.

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Like, I’m really not good at this whole liking a person thing because I am terrified and scared and Idk what to think or if he likes me or if he thinks I’m weird and on top of it all if he thinks that I’m just as rad as I think he is.. needless to say a lot goes into my heart and head when I like someone and until I find out how they feel, I play out scenarios in my head. And I over-think. And i over-feel. And I over-everything.

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